Ich soll Schuß sein

01:44 pm: and now there were two
Ive got two jobs, one I start tomorrow as a pewabic pottery sub and jeepers, look at me, I'm working my way there... whereever there is...

01:42 pm: happy anniversary to us
its four even though it feels like longer, we had fights and a break up but I have nothing but hope and anticipation for the journey ahead...

I love you Rosie

08:56 am: I've never had the same feeling for this long
this is the first time in my life that my feelings have been the same for a long time, this is new and comforting... and strange... but I love it... I've been trying to figure this out for a week now and after reviewing all the facts and things that are going on... this is what Ive come across, I've never been SATISFIED fully before now... mentally, emotionally, physically...

now, back to the show

07:28 am: Genius is eternal patience.

04:39 pm: Graydon Parrish
THis guy is fucking amazing...
http://www.hirschlandadler.com/Current/ex02/mar02/eloquentline/gparrish.html
http://www.roughtongalleries.com/parrish.html

12:54 pm: we learn something everyday
"the suffering we conceal and the pain we hide can only be understood by those who share a common pain"

09:18 am: thought it as interesting...
Naamah, Rabid Bitch of the Apocalypse's entry on A subject... gender issues studies anyone?

http://www.livejournal.com/users/naamah_darling/66235.html

06:56 am: there's this pain in my heart
that sits in a corner and makes fun of me
it tells me "look you love her but she doesnt see
so you'll have to have this hurt and sacred memories"
but I say no to it since it doesnt know
that I can't give in to anxiety

there's a man I know who goes everywhere
but the places that he travels take him nowhere
and looks at the ground or sky whichevers got less eyes
since his pain he doesnt want to spread around the sky
and he waits for summer to bring hope or
maybe just remind him of how much she cared

and here I am, with nothing in my hand
but a ticket to a place some distant far away land
that reminds me of a time when I could call you mine
but now I all I do is hurt inside and I know you do too

there's a girl that I knew who loved me to death
and her touch would melt me instantly
and her words did touch me like the hands she held
so tightly around me happily
and her eyes did shine and behind them, a brilliant mind
that reminded me of my little slips

and here I am, with nothing in my hand
but a picture with an image that is only that
it tells me nothing about what is underneath
except maybe a liking for warming coloring(yellow)
but that's not what I look at really, it's what it means
all I see are the feelings that I knew we had

so I lie in my bed I lie in my bed with these thoughts in my head
all of my secrets in your ears, and now you've no longer taken time to hear
the fact that I love you and I always want you near
and my actions were my sadness coming out like a lamb
except I ended up alone and only comforts for a better day
for the thoughts that our love is really meant to stay
cause I know that I love you and I always want you near
cause I know that I love you and I always want you hear

and now that pain in my heart hasnt left me yet
but I feel that there is a chance before we forget
how much we really meant to us
and now I hurt and shout and I lie about
with nothing but my fears and doubts
about myself and this emotion inside,
this hurt that I've been trying to hide
it's about all the love that I tried to give
and share with a girl that I told all my secrets to
but now I'm here, only here
where's this place that I am,
it reminds me of a feeling that has always bothered me

emotions I share seem to fall out of step
with the one that I'd play the horn for
in this procession we call life that has trees that cover me
from the sadness that tends to rain down
when I reach this point in the street

and there's the girl I see that really loves me
and I love her to death with all heart and call her lovely
and I hope that this gets to her in time
so I can talk to her and tell her that I love her...


all this is said to say that I dont want to break up with you...

01:02 am: I love therefore I believe
Hope arouses, as nothing else can arouse, a passion for the possible

02:41 am: oh why am I so involved in researching everything until I know all that I want to know...
well, Im up at this hour.. (2:42am) researching astrological stuff just cause I was curious as to what makes the wheels of life go round. Now, all I have to do is find something else to occupy my time, oh wait, I know what now, nevermind, Ive been working on it for a while, I guess I better hop back on it...

tomorrow, I learn some valuable lessons in german and write every letter and sound in the greek alphabet... yadda yadda oblidi oblida desmond is great... yah....